My thoughts about whats going on re Subo, having spent a lot of time researching everything I can find online ever since her auditionbear with me, Ive had to put a lot of facts together to understand this:
This has been a learning curve over that time. I have observed that Susan is a person of truth, without guile. Her brother said that one manifestation of her slight disability is that she thinks everyone is good and takes them at face value. Unfortunately I bet she doesnt any longer, and I think that shock is part of what got her.
I observed Piers gaming her all the way through the competition, egging on her immature crush on him and publicly reporting every nuance, instead of answering her with gentlemanly charm and then ignoring it as a proper person would have. He must have confused her greatly, as he would say something as if he favored her and then turn it around, all in the same sentence. There is no way she was prepared for people like this. I dont think she could have known he was causing her to embarrass herself, until too late. While Susan was still in the Priory, Amanda Holden was here on Larry King supposedly in sympathy, but brought up laughingly that she feared that Susan had a crush on Piers.
First off, Piers is the former editor ofTHE MIRRORand of a similar rag called around the world, or something, and before that was editor of another smarm sheet, the Sununtil he was fired for some sensitive false information he published, false pics (I dont know if he knew or not) that seemed to show British soldiers torturing Iraqi prisoners of war. So his character is revealed in his career path, is it not?
I have gradually observed that all three of these judges are mostly concerned about building up the ratings for their show, which is also their job to do. Their way of handling things is always geared to this. Keeping the media circus going is all to draw the public into watching by generating competition. Susan was flying away with the show, and they wanted to make sure it would be a competition. So before the semi finals when all the world was in love with Susan, they began to reframe the conversation. Susan got framed. They started by saying in every venue they could, every time, that oh, Susan might not win, because all these other contestants were so good they might beat her, so tune in and see. Well, Susans guileless mind believed them. Her brother said a manifestation of her condition is that she is easily influenced by others, but does not listen to her family. And that she just believed what was said. I think these remarks came from John.
Combine this with the fact that leaving the shelter of Blackburn, she was exposed to the media reports from around the worldremember, she did not have a computer at home, and had not seen all the stuff. So at the same time, she was reading/seeing/hearing everywhere how ugly she is, in the most cruel terms I have ever heard used. I have never seen anyone brutalized this way, including some performers who may be criminals. What is more hurtful, these cruel remarks were often in a guise of praise, as in hairy angel. How could it not gut her, even though she coped with it with the grace of a saint, as she always has!
So by the semis, you can already see a change in her. Her confidence and joy are already almost gone, and she is beginning to look fearful. After being told by the whole world that she is supremely ugly, of course she must have been desperate to change her appearance. I noticed that starting at the semis, her face seems too stiff to make as much expression as in her natural state, and I missed that expression which is part of what sells her. I guessed there might be one of those collagen treatments that plump wrinkles out of the skin because her face also began to look a bit swollen. God forbid that it should be botox, which Simon admittedly uses.
Then the context of her presentation was reframed further. BGT never released to the public the information I got from her hometown paper and one other place, that shed had a bad cold the week of the semis, which is why her voice cracked when she began Memory. BGT let the media report that her voice cracked because she was cracking up, too nervous. I never believed it, because Susan uses nerves, and is not over nervous about singing, though I bet if anyone felt really, really ugly, theyd be nervous about even being seen. By this time maybe all her emotional attention was on her appearance instead of her singing, which would be very hard.
So the cracking up story began, and nothing factual about it. But a false lead can take on a life of its own when it is nurtured, and BGT nurtured it very well, all while pretending great friendship. Actually they may consider themselves great friends because their ethic is very different from Susans or ours, these are a different kind of people I have come to realize.
I see at least two lines of possibility. One is that the bookmakers stood to lose millions with Susans win. But how could she lose, she was a shoo-in. So she had to be re-framed in a way to make the public lose respect. Why did BGT go along? A matter for speculation
. Besides that, the youtube phone numbers for her were actually for two rivals, and people who tried to call in votes for her reported the lines were always jammed. The reporters who tortured her right before the final may have been paid to do that, to try to break her image. BGT let the media report that the police were called and that the pic showed the police questioning her about her behavior--when the truth was that the police were already nearby and came to see what was wrong, the pic was when she and her sister were telling the cop what happened, and then the cop made the reporters leave. That was never reported nor stated by BGT.
By the time Susan got to the finals, she had been confined in the BGT venue while all this was happening and people suddenly began to turn on her and treat her as if she had done something bad, was crazy, and all this after being told she is ugly, ugly, ugly. It must have been so traumatic and confusing, with Piers and the others betrayal as they brought up at her final performance right before the vote, every rotten thing that had been printed about her, before millions of viewers. Apparently the cheapskates didnt even spring for a cell phone for her, after she brought them millions of viewers, because she couldnt even make a call without borrowing another contestants mothers cell phone, a mother who later used that to discredit Susan as crazy for wanting to call and talk to her cat. My heart breaks to think there is a good likelihood this is the kind of thing Susan was going through at what should have been a sweet, innocent and joyful time. Susan would never break down or become confused because she came in second. We saw her interviews repeatedly while she was still at home, and that is not in her nature.
There is another possibility, that like me she may be unused to medications, even over-the-counter, and may not react well to them. If she had to take something because of the cold maybe it made her feel bad. And she couldnt sleep, and perhaps was given something to help but it may have backfired. Or, just that extreme exhaustion causes behavioral changes even without all the other things she had to deal with. I hate to say that I know this personally, but I do, that as a person ages, it becomes much harder to sleep in strange places like hotels unless you are used to it. A young person just sleeps anywhere. So maybe with any or all of these things, her behavior did make the judges think they did not want her representing them, but they still wanted to support her career. All I know is that I could take one look at them before the finals and know that Susan was not going to win.
What happened after the finals we dont exactly know, but Im pretty sure the normal thing would be to take a person to the hospital, where they could be sedated and given a thorough physical. Susans face was extremely swollen at the final, and I was worried about the possibility of something wrong, like kidneys, thyroid, or ??? Taking her to the Priory after a cursory physical examination sounds like more of tearing down her clean image, although perhaps they have some of the best medical care available there.
There is so much more that I could say, but the key is to understand the nature of the players. The worst thing that is going on right now is less the constant disinformation than it is the utter lack of proper information. Susans publicist works for Simons publicist, but she is not doing any good for Susan whatsoever. I doubt that Susans family knows what is being reported here. I would like to add, Piers wants her to appear on AGT, and I am terrified for her to do so. I watched it one time, and the audience was so horrid I was shocked and felt a deep embarrassment for my country. Piers article about it was followed by an obviously deliberate swarm of negative comments, and I do not feel Susan should be put in this position ever again. Piers is trying to use her to build audience for his unpopular show. These people are users. That could be ok up to a point, but I wish Subo would get away from them as soon as she can. However, I hope it will all come out well anyway. She is learning a great deal, I still think Vegas could be much easier, not harder, and it is prestigiousit is not all naked girlsand its a more relaxed place to be than NY could ever be. Go from Blackburn to New York? Shes only going to Vegas for a few performances, not for years. I hope shell be allowed to get in with Donny and Marie because they are so normal and will treat her right. No, Im not Morman, I just think they are very decent and could make her feel good inside again.
One more thing: here is another article. Take a look, in case you want to respond to it.
http://www.mercurynews.com/breakingnews/ci_12649260, People: Susan Boyle skips show after reported screaming fit 6/19/2009, by Randy McMullen, Contra Costa Times. Thank you all, I promise I wont always be lengthy. Ive never been a fan of anyone before, but the first time I heard Susan she reached me in such a way that she has never been out of my mind since, and those blasted songs keep running through my head! I detest persecution and all the rest, so really want to help if any way I can. Hopefully all will be well and all this will blow away, but maybe we can be part of the wind.